I feel like I am caught up in a funny test of some sort. The universe is "just checking" to see how tolerant I really am.
Back before I had children I would look at stories of LGBT people and internally shame their families for not accepting them. I would say, "Of course we will continue to love our child if s/he is gay."
Well, the universe threw us a curveball and gave us an atheist. I have been running through the gamut of emotion on this one. What have I done wrong? How did I fail my child? How can I "fix" this?
I have tolerance for and acceptance for people who are gay. I've basically ignored atheism but when it comes down to it. I want to change atheists into a believer of any kind. Jesus, Mohammed, the universe, nature, pick a deity and we're good. This not believing in anything thing kind of freaks me out.
I am learning acceptance and it isn't super comfortable. I want my child to believe what they believe because it is important to them and it feels right. Not because I drill it into them.
(These are my preliminary thoughts on this topic. I will add more as time goes by.)
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